The Thoughts of a Coffee Drinking Vessel

Sex Drugs Food Excessive Hours Sleep Which of these are using to cover the pain you are currently dealing with? You are walking around with this mask on telling the world that you are okay and in the dark you are not dealing with it but you are trying to numb it. When you are finished with your vices you go back to your secret place because the pain you were trying to hide is actually worse. Your impromptu decisions have added a layer to what you are trying to heal. How do I know this? Because I did it myself and here lately I have found myself almost falling into old habits. I choose to snack instead of talk. I prefer sleeping over conversations at times. I thought I was finding my peace. I was hiding my pain instead. I am learning to cry when it's needed. Scream when necessary. I know I am allowed to feel what I feel in the moment. I can have my moment. Encouraging scriptures for this blog are Psalm 91 and Philippians 4. The whole chapters. How about those vices? Th

I have so many questions in my head right now. I am not understanding a few things that I have seen and that I have heard. How many times have we all experienced this in our lives. I often think of two phrases from my goddaughters (their mother has given me permission to quote them) that I find myself saying out loud. They are "It's ALWAYS ME" and "It's Not My Fault". First one: It's always me. Yes it is. Why is it always me? There are other people that can do it and say it and live it and breathe it. Why am I the go to? Will someone else please stand up and the MVP, the VIP, be something...please. The reason why it is always you can be found in John 15:16(NCV) "You did not choose me; I chose you. And I gave you this work: to go and produce fruit, fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you anything you ask in my name." It's always you because you have been chosen to produce fruit. You gotta work because there is something in you